High voltage

Zack got me super baked with a blunt of weed. Soon after, my body started hardcore vibrating. My kundalini seems to be doing something..

I recently had a dream that entailed my death by poison, only to reawaken a few months later with my scalp peeled open and routine surgery experiments being performed. An Asian woman analyzed the space behind me using big neon-orange goggles. "Look, do you see the colour?" asked the surgeon. The woman nodded.

Yesterday Katie and I attended a Transmission of Light self-healing service. It felt comparatively similar to being on ecstasy. I noted waves of green and purple light behind my eyelids. Afterwards Beverly introduced Katie to a woman named Cecilia. While the two of them briefly talked I asked Bev if I could give her a hug. She told me I looked much clearer. She put her hand on my face and told me that I was just adorable. I wanted to cry! Cecilia, who looked oriental, said she could see my wings of light were beginning to unfold behind me. (Dream synchronicity!)

mckenna talks to me all the time

we all must try to understand what is happening. we need to try and understand what is happening. and in my humble opinion, ideology is only going to get in your way. nobody understands what is happening. not buddhists, not christians, not government scientists, not... you know, no one understands what is happening. so, forget ideology. they betray, they limit, they lead astray. just deal with the raw data and trust yourself. nobody is smarter than you are. and what if they are, what good is they're understanding doing you? the people who walk around saying, "well i don't understand quantum physics but somewhere somebody understands it," that's not a very helpful attitude for preserving the insights of quantum physics. inform yourself. what does inform yourself mean? it means: transcend and mistrust ideology; go for direct experience. what do you think when you face the waterfall? what do YOU think when you have sex? what do YOU think when YOU take psilocybin? everything else is unconfirmable rumor, useless, probably lies. so, liberate yourself from the illusion of culture. take responsibility for what you think and what you do.

Dream

I was in a house I didn't recognize. But it was Adam's house in this dream. I was in his room.
He stepped out for some number of minutes. I began to rummage through his stuff, looking for letters to/from his girlfriend and whatnot.
I happened to glance out the doorway and see that he was watching me from the other room outside.
I felt stupid. I bent my head down to cover my embarrassment.
"See?" He said. He came in and I sprawled on my belly on the floor, not wanting to look at his face in shame. He'd caught me at my worst. I felt like a worm.
He stood on my back. I felt energy travel through his feet and into my spine. He still loved me.

"You assist an evil system most effectively by obeying its orders and decrees. An evil system never deserves such allegiance. Allegiance to it means partaking of the evil. A good person will resist an evil system with his or her whole soul." - Mahatma Gandhi

Finally, my mind feels calm again.

The sun is in the house of Virgo, and the moon has moved into Pisces. The two polar energies are brilliantly at work. I feel awesome, like two September summers ago when I first tried psychedelics.

Timewave zero theory

the essence of the theory is that existence emerges from the clash of two forces, not good and evil but habit and novelty. habit is entropic, repetitious, conservative; novelty is creative, disjunctive, progressive. "in all processes in any scale, you can see these two forces grinding against each other. you can also see that novelty is winning." -TMK

as novelty increases, so does complexity. from the big bang on, "the universe has been complexifying, and each level of complexity achieved becomes the platform for a further ascent into complexity."

"you could say that the cosmos is a novelty-producing-and-conserving system of some sort. so, the evolution of higher animals and human culture and high technology is all in response to this universal form of complexification."

helping hands come in the situation you least expect

i went to the gas station on franklin street. after pre-paying and filling up i got in and turned the ignition. the car started momentarily then died. i tried again, but it wouldn't start back up. i kept turning, hoping it would work, to no avail. i looked around, still turning it over, hoping some passerby would be able to lend a hand or advice... nothing. i said, "shit, well, i can't even call anyone, i don't have anymore minutes" and put the car neutral, got out and started to push the car backwards towards the parking lot. the somali lady next to me at the pump came over and said something quietly, i couldn't really understand, and then started to help me push, so i smiled, saying, "thanks." once i had a good momentum going she said something else, again i couldn't understand over her accent and my heavy breathing. i looked behind me and saw she had stopped pushing so i smiled and waved. after having pushed the car into a spot, i got in and sat for a moment, thinking. i turned the ignition again just for the sake of it, and it started up! "hellll yeah!" i exclaimed. i drove the car back over to the pumps, got out and walked over to the woman. she said, "oh, it's working again, huh?" and i said, "yeah, i don't know what you did, but after you touched it it started right up! so i wanted to say thank you. i guess you have the magic touch." she smiled and chuckled in surprise at the remark. i happened to touch her elbow in appreciation. later out on the road i started feeling really high and happy, and my legs were all warm. it was like when the people would touch jesus' robes or something.

W.W. aka Kosmos

I dream'd in a dream, I saw a city invincible to the attacks of the whole of the rest of the earth;
I dream’d that was the new City of Friends;
Nothing was greater there than the quality of robust love—it led the rest;
It was seen every hour in the actions of the men of that city,
And in all their looks and words

the holographic mind

All the energy that ever was, is, or can be, is already here. Energy is all there is. Energy is neither created nor destroyed. Our thoughts are energy; nothing else is energy since everything occurs in our minds. So, the Big Bang was the manifestation of our thought - just one thought which occurred in an instant and with that thought, we created/ miscreated the entire known universe - all at once, the entire hologram - everything. Our consciousness can go anywhere it wants and focus on anything, any time, any space, any entity that it wants. Within a hologram there is no time and no space. Herein lies our consciousness. What we continue to do is just run around in this hologram just like a kid at the midway - trying different perspectives, lives, times, places, people, etc. Great fun! What an experiment!

Understanding the way the mind works is exigent. What happens is that we have a thought, rather, ‘thoughts have us’. 85% of them are negative because they arise from the ego mind which lives in fear. This is why what we experience in life seems to be somewhat negative. Thoughts are the energy which creates ... everything. Because we have senses we sense that things are not as we would like them and we strive to change the circumstances rather than change our thoughts. As Marianne Williamson said, “Changing our circumstances is like re-arranging the deck chairs on the Titanic.” What sometimes happens is that through increased information, unbeknownst to our conscious mind, we do change our thoughts, which fleetingly affords us to change our circumstances, which then change our perceptions, which then change our beliefs, which then begin to create more workable thoughts which create circumstances more to our liking. What works best is if we can release the old programming because then we are clear to create what we want. We need to stop the fear-based thinking which is so ingrained in us that we consider it natural. It is not.

Collectively we have ‘created’ our world. Truth is, if we want to know what is going on in our minds, we need only observe our circumstances. If we are happy with our circumstances, we can conclude that our minds are somewhat happy and vice versa. Our circumstances follow our thoughts. Nothing is created without thought, thought is the only source of energy, energy is what it takes to create, and energy is all there is. We have ‘cause and effect’ reversed. Our belief in time and space is what keeps us from knowing real cause and effect. Our circumstances are the result of our thinking, so our judging any situation is based upon our belief that circumstances came first and our response is the result.

You don’t get to vote on the way it is; you already did. - Werner Erhard

Since thoughts are creative energy, we must be vigilant about how we spend our energy. Praying for things that don’t exist, i.e.: things of this world, will gets us nothing. So we pray to change our perceptions or we pray in gratitude: “it is done” (wasa). Prayers are then ‘answered’ - and so it is (espavo).

I prayed for a bicycle until I realized God doesn’t work that way. So, I stole a bicycle and then prayed for forgiveness. - Emo Philips

The powers that be don’t want us, whom they consider the ‘enemy’, to know their secrets. They
promote each of us as the other’s competition, when in fact our opposition is way closer to home - our very own ego mind. If we continue to believe that ‘what is going on in the world’ is real and creates fear for us, we must consider that we are continuing to create it. If we want to change the world, which exists only in our own minds, we must first change our minds about the world. When we fear, we serve only the dark entities which David Icke claims thrive on our fear. When we rise above fear, they cease to exist, at least in our minds.... and seeing as everything exists only in our minds... they will cease to exist - except for those who choose to keep them alive by paying their attention to them. We will win. We are watching a horror movie which ends well. Keep up your spirits in anticipation for the famous final scene.