With moments like these, who needs eternity?

Breathe in, send out. Breathe out, take in. A self-contained source of fusion and fission. ONeness.

Last night

I was meditating and listening to some entrainment music, a Gamma frequency soundtrack by Dr. Jeffrey Thompson. I was having difficulty raising my energy past my anahata, so I stayed my focus there for the remainder. And soon into it I suddenly felt blissful ecstatic energy burst outward. It felt so good I couldn't help but tear up! By the end of the track I was feeling weightless. It was so short, too, the meditation. It's a 30 minute long track but it only felt like half that amount of time..

Become Music

Close your eyes. Make no effort to hear or think anything whatsoever. Relax every muscle in your body. You start to drowse heavily. Everything slowly dissolves. Wait, and let go. Nothing but the music, music and nothing but, absolute, imperious, and alone. You are dissolving into the rhythm. Words aren't made for this. You must wait for that wordless moment when you cannot even say you are floating in the ether because, for such an expression to have meaning, it would still imply a "you" separate from vibration itself. It is precisely that "you" that is canceled. Nothing remains but waves, that pure pulsation you have become.

I saw Katie's chakra energies for my first time. On her chest was green, sort of in the shape of a butterfly, with yellow on the bottom tips of the wings, and blue flowing up her throat, as if the butterfly were singing. And I observed her face for awhile as green energy flowed across her cheeks. I brought my hand up to her face and caressed the skin on her cheek and neck, and suddenly I saw a glowing green between my hand and her neck! And I looked at my hand, spotting green flowing across my own skin as well. :)

The Invincible Adam

Invincible Adam
and complicated me
met on a toadstool
during a Sunday's eve'.

As the magic of Gaia
shone forth through his fibers
there seemed an elegance that could
ferment even Lucifer's ire!

And like a sage out of a page
of the Tao Teh Ching
I watched him dance
between the lines
of the cosmic yang-yin
crying out,
"Row, row, row your boat..."

As my heart blissfully burst into
an ethereal nebulous state,
I thanked Oh captain, my captain
for the encounter of one
such as this effervescent shipmate.

Real Fucking Inner Turmoil - Turbulant, Tumultuous, Hazy Rage

Three nights ago I became overwhelmingly disconnected with myself. It happened suddenly, after Katie did some energy work on my throat. I became irrationally helpless to a rage, an anger, but one that felt foreign to me. Can negative energy invade and attack? I still don't know what to make of it. :/

High voltage

Zack got me super baked with a blunt of weed. Soon after, my body started hardcore vibrating. My kundalini seems to be doing something..

I recently had a dream that entailed my death by poison, only to reawaken a few months later with my scalp peeled open and routine surgery experiments being performed. An Asian woman analyzed the space behind me using big neon-orange goggles. "Look, do you see the colour?" asked the surgeon. The woman nodded.

Yesterday Katie and I attended a Transmission of Light self-healing service. It felt comparatively similar to being on ecstasy. I noted waves of green and purple light behind my eyelids. Afterwards Beverly introduced Katie to a woman named Cecilia. While the two of them briefly talked I asked Bev if I could give her a hug. She told me I looked much clearer. She put her hand on my face and told me that I was just adorable. I wanted to cry! Cecilia, who looked oriental, said she could see my wings of light were beginning to unfold behind me. (Dream synchronicity!)

mckenna talks to me all the time

we all must try to understand what is happening. we need to try and understand what is happening. and in my humble opinion, ideology is only going to get in your way. nobody understands what is happening. not buddhists, not christians, not government scientists, not... you know, no one understands what is happening. so, forget ideology. they betray, they limit, they lead astray. just deal with the raw data and trust yourself. nobody is smarter than you are. and what if they are, what good is they're understanding doing you? the people who walk around saying, "well i don't understand quantum physics but somewhere somebody understands it," that's not a very helpful attitude for preserving the insights of quantum physics. inform yourself. what does inform yourself mean? it means: transcend and mistrust ideology; go for direct experience. what do you think when you face the waterfall? what do YOU think when you have sex? what do YOU think when YOU take psilocybin? everything else is unconfirmable rumor, useless, probably lies. so, liberate yourself from the illusion of culture. take responsibility for what you think and what you do.