Copied from my message to Katie :P

after leaving the library i drove towards work early, but ended up driving along some of the backroads near the farm. i parked in this field and pulled out The Bhagavad Gita. i started feeling really strange and slightly light-headed soon into reading, so i closed the book and turned off the music. i became aware of the loud ringing in my ears then, so i tried to focus on it and just became more aware of my surroundings. i was starting to have similar thoughts to when i've tripped on acid, it was quite surreal. there was a light rain falling. i wasn't getting anything out of the ringing however, so i decided to do some meditating...with the heart chakra! when i visualized my temple, it was pretty closed off, not open like yours. so i changed its looks, forcing the doorways on its sides to become more open. i went barefoot into my temple this time, and the wet stone felt awesome. i noticed some of the pictures framed on the walls were of other similar temples, maybe they were previous temple formations from my younger years, idk. and when the flames started growing from the energy i was giving, i envisioned green light being slightly emitted at the edges of the flames. you should try that! and after exiting, i did a couple twirls and then took off into the air. :) when i opened my eyes i noticed the rain was letting up. i got out of the car and saw loads of clovers all over the ground, so i searched for a 4-leafer, no luck though, lol. and the sun started peeking through the clouds, too. i couldn't help but let out a laugh! i felt great.

later at work there was a goat lying in the barn amongst the others. i could tell she was in pain. so i sat down next to her and slowly petted her, trying to keep her calm. she couldn't really move, so i got her some water and lifted her head into the pan. she took a few struggled gulps. i tried doing some energy transferal to see if i could tell what her problem was, but it didn't really work out. so i just sent love and healing energy into her. i don't know how well it worked (goats don't really give feedback). but as i was doing it, a Nubian came up behind me and started rubbing her head on my back and neck, and it sent waves of energy throughout my body, and i used those waves to strengthen the love and healing i was sending out. it was fucking cool. :D

magickal sheep encounter

I was at the zoo with my twin serpent. We came to the pen holding a Dall Sheep. He was about 30 feet away, lying down next to some rocks.
Katie said, "Try calling out to him."
So I directed my energy towards the animal and said (psychically), "Heyyyy, Dall Sheep. Heeyyyy Dall Sheep. Come here, Dall Sheep." After some moments he started to arch his neck and did this rolling of his head to the sky. I continued calling to him. He got up off the ground and just stood there for a minute. Katie looked over at me with an anticipating smile. He walked to the right side fence and did the head roll thing two more times. I still called after him in the same fashion. He took a few steps in our direction. Katie's smile turned into surprised excitement. The sheep moved towards us again, coming all the way to the fence between us. I turned to Katie, shrugged and smiled sheepishly (lulz).
Then the Dall Sheep took a piss, and walked off.

Dear One

As my soul has been traveling along its path of this life,
I wonder if it started to feel the energy of Katie.
It knew that it was coming to the moment where
our love would collide and explode.

But early on, I didn't specifically know
that my twin was Katie.
And that seems to explain why I latched onto
Sommer and then Heather the way I did.

I was just confused as to where this source of a
LOVENERGY CONNECTION
was going to reveal itself in its original form.

It tasted like shite, but it opened my tastes for new love.

Katie showed me the power of love energy.
Zack showed me the power of a smile.
Aaron showed me the power of closed doors.
I showed myself the power of uninhibited expression.

Now I know it's not just because of the common connection that Katie and I have...

Oddly enough, my mom was able to channel energy to me!
(At first I tried to give to her, but nothing much was felt on her end.)
She seems to be blocked up around the solar plexus area on the spine, from what I could feel.
(Katie and I have been discovering the ability to feel another's energy by way of transfer. It works best when our third/fifth eyes make out.)

Kurt Vonnegut - Bokononism

If you wish to study a granfalloon,
just remove the skin of a toy balloon.

T'ung Jen Companions

Katie consulted the I Ching in regards to her and I, or our generalized relationship. It provided her with Hexagram 13, which reads, "Lovers (friends) in the open - success! It is advantageous to cross the great river (or sea)*. The Superior Man will benefit if he does not slacken in his righteous persistence."
[*To make any kind of journey.]

We performed some more scrying last night. I saw her wounded inner child. I also saw her Warrior self. There was a painted, white, elongated zag going from under her right eye, diagonally up across the bridge of her nose, and straight again over her left eye. The right eye had a fierce bird-look to it. The rest of her face was of an older woman, confident, and leathery but tight-skinned. Katie saw one of my demons. His eyes went dark and started to boil, and he gave her a cocky grin, as if to say, 'you see me but you can't do anything about it, ha ha.' Later we switched. She saw part of the Warrior me and I saw a demon of hers, although it didn't fully come out. It was mottled and boiled and very loathsome.

12:45 AM Sighting

Last night I sighted my first UFO!
Was chillin' under the cloudy, starry atmosphere at Ki-Chi-Saga park with Heather Lou, when I spotted a stationary light start to move, at a similar speed as satellites do in the night sky. I thought mine eyes were playing tricks, but the speed seemed to be varying. I remember thinking, "no way, if that's a UFO I am going to flip." The light then completely turned and started moving 90 degrees in a different direction. That's when I got giddy! And it continued its eratic flight for a good four or five minutes, increasing and decreasing in speed, even stopping every so often for a couple seconds, zig-zagging around the same area in the sky, and changing directions quickly, too fast for a plane to be capable of doing. But eventually I lost sight of it in the clouds.

∞

A simple plan for life is change, find yourself the nicest range, strange
Then you see the light, Then you find the right, On a bright day
There’s a population boom going on, There’s a planetary shift you can hear it in this song ,
They try to heal it then cut it, heal it then cut it, heal it then cut it don’t cut it again
If you feel it then love it, if you feel it then love it, if you feel it love it my friend
Its right in front of us each and every one of us Freedom or death yes the two are antonymous
Symphonic, jus hearin good news I keep my ears open and stare to the moon
I know theres more than hope when I put out the feelers, We all want the same thing when we’re bein all realist
Collective consciousness lets form a village, Then spread good feelings till there aint no more killers
And I apologize if I didn’t always rise to occasion, Had to come of age and apply my knowledge to my personal experiences
If I didn’t I could’ve died in all seriousness, We’ve come far y’all
As a person, as a people, as a world Its time to raise the bar
Its not hard just remember who you are, Its not hard just remember
all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration,
we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively,
there is no such thing as death,
life is only a dream,
and we are the imagination of ourselves.
∞

4/10 - Ouija Board and Channeling at Katie's Place

We lit a few candles, turned off the lights, sat on her bed with the board, and began the session.

Katie: Is there anybody there?
YES.
K: Would you like to talk with us?
YES.
K: What is your name?
L-E-M.
(We assumed these were initials.)
Alex: What does the L stand for?
L-A-R-R-Y.
A: Are you male?
YES.
A: How old are you, Larry?
2-3.
K: Larry, how did you die?
E-X-T-A-S-Y.
(We had been discussing ecstasy not too long before the session.)
K: Is that really how you died, Larry?
(Indecisive movement.) NO.
K: Where are you?
(Katie knew the answer right after she asked.)
H-E-R-E.
K: How long have you been here?
(Moved off the board.)
A: Have you been here less than a year?
YES.
A: Have you been here less than a month?
YES.
A: Have you been here less than a week?
YES.
A: Where are you from?
V.
K: Are you from Virginia?
YES.
A: Did you know people from Minnesota?
YES.
A: Did you have a girlfriend, Larry?
YES.
K: Did you and your girlfriend have tons of raunchy sex?
NO.
K: Do you wish you had?
YES.
K: Why are you here, Larry?
K-A.
(We assumed this meant Katie.)
A: Do you like Katie?
YES.
K: Were you here earlier when I was changing?
YES.
A: So why are you here?
(Moved off the board.)
(We assumed this meant he didn't want to say.)
A: What's your favourite colour?
(I knew the answer before he started spelling.)
Y-E-L-
A: Yellow.
(Stopped spelling.)
K: Was your girlfriend attractive?
NO.
K: Do you think I'm attractive?
YES.
A: Are you bisexual?
NO.
A: When's your birthday?
8-2.
(Katie's birthday is also August 2nd!)
K: When did you die, Larry?
(Moved off the board.)
(We started to assume that he didn't like serious questions.)
A: Are you a day person or a night person?
D.
A: Do you like cats?
NO.
(We couldn't think of anymore questions for awhile. We also were doubting whether or not this was just our own psyche's fucking with us. So we decided to head in a different direction.)
A: If you can, make your presence known by blowing out a candle.
(We waited. Nothing. We assumed it was possibly too hard for him.)
K: If you can, make your presence known by making a sound.
(We waited. Again, nothing.)
A: Are you trying?
YES.
K: Is there some method that would be easier?
YES.
K: What is that method?
M-I-R-R-O-R-S.
(At this point we both got too scared of that idea.)
A: Can it be either one of us?
YES.
(Neither one of us wanted to do this. I grabbed Katie's mirror off of her dresser and set it leaning on a pillow, face down.)
K: How does this method work?
L-O-O-K.
(Again, we both were too nervous.)
A: Would one of us be easier than the other?
A.
(We assumed this meant Alex. I took a deep breath, turned the mirror around, and stared. Nothing happened.)
(An idea then popped into Katie's head, and she explained to me about the divination technique called scrying. So I held the mirror in front of me and stared. But the lighting seemed too dim.)
(Katie tested the method closer to the candles. She said her face became whiter, and she got scared and stopped.)
(I sat down by the candles and held the mirror close to my face. There was lots of dissolving of my features. I kept my concentration on not trying to focus on anything specific. There was more dissolving and slight changes. I caught glimpses of darker eyes, and rounder face, and more stretched-out lips. It was a bit unnerving. Afterwards, I felt drained for awhile.)
(Katie wanted to try again, so we switched spots. She also began seeing dark eyes [we didn't discuss what we saw until we both had done this] but nothing else was really clear.)
(I used the board while Katie was still looking.)
A: Would you show yourself to Katie?
(Indecisive movement.) C.
(I assumed this meant the cat, and that it was bothering him. She had jumped onto the bed a few minutes before and was being nosy. Katie brought her out of the room.)
A: How can Katie see you?
A.
(We assumed this again meant Alex. Katie joined me on the bed.)
K: Why Alex?
B-O-Y.
K: Are you more comfortable with him because he's a boy?
YES.
(We then discussed the possibility of Larry coming inside of me, and that's why I had felt so drained before.)
A: Larry, when you showed yourself to me, were you inside of me?
YES.
A: Could you do it again?
YES.
A: So if I let you inside me, would you be able to show yourself to Katie?
YES.
A: Would you be able to show yourself if she looked at my face?
YES.
A: What would she have to focus on?
(Indecisive movement.)
A: Does she already know?
YES.
A: What would I have to focus on?
(Indecisive movement.)
K: Should he focus on an object or event or something?
YES.
(We digress with random questions about sports for a while.)
A: What should I focus on?
K-A-I-T-E.
A: What about her? Focus on who she is as a person?
YES.
(We discussed what each of us were going to focus on, then told Larry we were ready.)
(We got comfortable, and Katie began to scry using my face. I repeated Katie's name in my head and thought about what I liked about her, what were her positive traits/qualities, et cetera. After only a minute or two of scrying, a face that was entirely different from mine appeared. Katie later said he looked younger than 23, had wavy brown hair, brown eyes, delicate features, and wide smiling lips. He had looked at her contentedly and non-threateningly. Katie: "I couldn't look away for a second, but then realized I was freaked out and looked away. I didn't tell Alex I saw anything yet. I kept scrying and kept seeing partial features, especially smiles. I asked Alex if he smiled and he said no. He then had to take his contacts out [eyes were getting too dry]. When he came back we continued but I was still seeing a smile and just pieces of his face at a time. It was at a particular time when he smiled at me that I realized his name wasn't Larry.")
K: Is your name really Larry?
NO.
A: What is it?
Z-H-T.
A: Could you spell your first name?
Z-E-K-E.
(Right after the Z was centered, Katie knew it was Zeke.)
A: Is your name really Zeke?
YES.
A: Is Larry your father?
YES.
(We had conversation about the whole previous experience for awhile.)
A: Are you still inside me?
YES.
A: How long are you going to be there?
(Indecisive movement.)
A: How many minutes?
2-0.
(With a few more questions, I realized I was able to answer them without the board. At this realization, I also felt the urge to talk to Katie, kind of like as an ambassador for Zeke. AKA a channel, or vessel.)
Hi.
K: Hi.
I like you.
K: Thanks, I like you too.
Want to go out?
K: Where would you take me?
-Smiles- Heaven.
K: -Giggle-
(Katie didn't know what else to say, and I could tell Zeke became shy.)
A: There's something he wants.
K: What?
A: He doesn't want to tell, he doesn't think you'll do it.
K: What is it?
A: He wants a kiss.
K: -Giggles- Well, tell Zeke I'll kiss him if he tells me how he died.
A: I can't read an answer.
(We went to the board.)
K: If I agree to kiss you will you tell us how you died?
YES.
K: So how did you die?
E-X.
A: Were you killed accidentally?
YES.
A: Did you kill yourself?
(Moved off the board.)
K: Did you kill yourself because of an ex?
YES.
K: Did she break your heart?
YES.
(Then Katie had no idea what to say, and I could tell Zeke had started to sulk.)
A: He's frustrated.
K: Why?
A: You aren't really making him feel better.
(Katie went silent for awhile, then started talking to Zeke.)
K: So are you more of a dog person?
Yes.
K: What kind of dogs?
Beagles. And basset hounds.
K: Did you have one?
No.
K: My brother has a basset hound. He's cute.
-Smiles and chuckles-
Okay, I'm ready for that kiss now.
K: Okay.
Lie on your back.
K: -Giggles-
What, haven't you been kissed on your back before?
K: Well, yeah...
Alex is more nervous than I am.
K: Why?
He doesn't want to tell you.
K: Why not?
-Giggles and shakes head-
K: Why not?
-Silence-
K: He knows he can tell me anything.
A: He wants to switch positions.
(We moved.)
A: He doesn't want to do anything till you can see him.
K: -Nods-
Let's play pretend.
K: Okay.
Because I want you to pretend that you've wanted this for a very long time.
K: I have.
(I [Zeke] move up close to Katie. She stares and looks for his face. He puts his hand on her cheek. She sees his face and smiles.)
Hi.
K: -Smiles again- Hi.
Close your eyes.
(Katie does. He kisses her, slowly, twice. Then rolls onto his back, beaming.)
(My heart felt like bursting forth through my chest.)
(Katie said she was feeling really shaky and energized, very excited.)
A: He says, 'Thank you.'
K: He was probably talking to you.
A: Yeah.