The Invincible Adam

Invincible Adam
and complicated me
met on a toadstool
during a Sunday's eve'.

As the magic of Gaia
shone forth through his fibers
there seemed an elegance that could
ferment even Lucifer's ire!

And like a sage out of a page
of the Tao Teh Ching
I watched him dance
between the lines
of the cosmic yang-yin
crying out,
"Row, row, row your boat..."

As my heart blissfully burst into
an ethereal nebulous state,
I thanked Oh captain, my captain
for the encounter of one
such as this effervescent shipmate.

Real Fucking Inner Turmoil - Turbulant, Tumultuous, Hazy Rage

Three nights ago I became overwhelmingly disconnected with myself. It happened suddenly, after Katie did some energy work on my throat. I became irrationally helpless to a rage, an anger, but one that felt foreign to me. Can negative energy invade and attack? I still don't know what to make of it. :/

High voltage

Zack got me super baked with a blunt of weed. Soon after, my body started hardcore vibrating. My kundalini seems to be doing something..

I recently had a dream that entailed my death by poison, only to reawaken a few months later with my scalp peeled open and routine surgery experiments being performed. An Asian woman analyzed the space behind me using big neon-orange goggles. "Look, do you see the colour?" asked the surgeon. The woman nodded.

Yesterday Katie and I attended a Transmission of Light self-healing service. It felt comparatively similar to being on ecstasy. I noted waves of green and purple light behind my eyelids. Afterwards Beverly introduced Katie to a woman named Cecilia. While the two of them briefly talked I asked Bev if I could give her a hug. She told me I looked much clearer. She put her hand on my face and told me that I was just adorable. I wanted to cry! Cecilia, who looked oriental, said she could see my wings of light were beginning to unfold behind me. (Dream synchronicity!)

mckenna talks to me all the time

we all must try to understand what is happening. we need to try and understand what is happening. and in my humble opinion, ideology is only going to get in your way. nobody understands what is happening. not buddhists, not christians, not government scientists, not... you know, no one understands what is happening. so, forget ideology. they betray, they limit, they lead astray. just deal with the raw data and trust yourself. nobody is smarter than you are. and what if they are, what good is they're understanding doing you? the people who walk around saying, "well i don't understand quantum physics but somewhere somebody understands it," that's not a very helpful attitude for preserving the insights of quantum physics. inform yourself. what does inform yourself mean? it means: transcend and mistrust ideology; go for direct experience. what do you think when you face the waterfall? what do YOU think when you have sex? what do YOU think when YOU take psilocybin? everything else is unconfirmable rumor, useless, probably lies. so, liberate yourself from the illusion of culture. take responsibility for what you think and what you do.

Dream

I was in a house I didn't recognize. But it was Adam's house in this dream. I was in his room.
He stepped out for some number of minutes. I began to rummage through his stuff, looking for letters to/from his girlfriend and whatnot.
I happened to glance out the doorway and see that he was watching me from the other room outside.
I felt stupid. I bent my head down to cover my embarrassment.
"See?" He said. He came in and I sprawled on my belly on the floor, not wanting to look at his face in shame. He'd caught me at my worst. I felt like a worm.
He stood on my back. I felt energy travel through his feet and into my spine. He still loved me.

"You assist an evil system most effectively by obeying its orders and decrees. An evil system never deserves such allegiance. Allegiance to it means partaking of the evil. A good person will resist an evil system with his or her whole soul." - Mahatma Gandhi

Finally, my mind feels calm again.

The sun is in the house of Virgo, and the moon has moved into Pisces. The two polar energies are brilliantly at work. I feel awesome, like two September summers ago when I first tried psychedelics.

Timewave zero theory

the essence of the theory is that existence emerges from the clash of two forces, not good and evil but habit and novelty. habit is entropic, repetitious, conservative; novelty is creative, disjunctive, progressive. "in all processes in any scale, you can see these two forces grinding against each other. you can also see that novelty is winning." -TMK

as novelty increases, so does complexity. from the big bang on, "the universe has been complexifying, and each level of complexity achieved becomes the platform for a further ascent into complexity."

"you could say that the cosmos is a novelty-producing-and-conserving system of some sort. so, the evolution of higher animals and human culture and high technology is all in response to this universal form of complexification."

helping hands come in the situation you least expect

i went to the gas station on franklin street. after pre-paying and filling up i got in and turned the ignition. the car started momentarily then died. i tried again, but it wouldn't start back up. i kept turning, hoping it would work, to no avail. i looked around, still turning it over, hoping some passerby would be able to lend a hand or advice... nothing. i said, "shit, well, i can't even call anyone, i don't have anymore minutes" and put the car neutral, got out and started to push the car backwards towards the parking lot. the somali lady next to me at the pump came over and said something quietly, i couldn't really understand, and then started to help me push, so i smiled, saying, "thanks." once i had a good momentum going she said something else, again i couldn't understand over her accent and my heavy breathing. i looked behind me and saw she had stopped pushing so i smiled and waved. after having pushed the car into a spot, i got in and sat for a moment, thinking. i turned the ignition again just for the sake of it, and it started up! "hellll yeah!" i exclaimed. i drove the car back over to the pumps, got out and walked over to the woman. she said, "oh, it's working again, huh?" and i said, "yeah, i don't know what you did, but after you touched it it started right up! so i wanted to say thank you. i guess you have the magic touch." she smiled and chuckled in surprise at the remark. i happened to touch her elbow in appreciation. later out on the road i started feeling really high and happy, and my legs were all warm. it was like when the people would touch jesus' robes or something.