Protips

"Lots and lots of patience. Buy lots of diapers now while you have the time and buy in bulk. The average baby goes through 10 diapers a day. Buy at least one package of diapers a week if you can, and don't get the same size remember babies grow so plan ahead you should have at least 3 large boxes of each stage of diapers cause babies grow quick. She'll grow out of the newborn diapers in the first month. Most of all Girls are good listeners but also stubborn. Be firm, be strong, but be gentile to their feelings for you are their first friend, their first love, and the first man in their life. Being a father is the greatest joy a man can have. Good luck and congratulations again."

universal big bang

explosion followed by

unifying love bang

expansion

impossible to photograph

or measure they say

say but i,

spring-loaded and coiled

(we have a gun, you see

it's silver and studded

with a ribbed label

that says coiled potentiality)

click the trigger

and i will gladly travel

to the furthest spear

of the sun

may i knead your dreams

and pour my flesh

within your moon magic?

upon return i tread

shyly to(o

your throne where

spring blossoms

where deeply, i bow

this fool this man

in the shade of your permission

to alight upon

your almond feet

my uncovered body

(a shedding action)

captivated by

my own tower reversed

impurities so real -

hardly have i known

such gentle throbbing

wrinkles and wounds

your eyelids' flutters

catch me half-guard

off-smirk

words

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and in the mists

of your sweet breath

lovely one

my heart rests

oak and newell

sweet sweet whisperings
silent succulent sedation
a crossroads of christhood
the movement meets the stillness
wander in the shallows of the wind
wonder in the shallows of my mind
the sound of exhaustion
brings rise to an illusion
it grapples and it inflates
the eyelids becoming warmer, redder, heave-ho
the futile struggle shows its colours, heave-ho
and now autumn's dreams are drunk, heave-ho

With moments like these, who needs eternity?

Breathe in, send out. Breathe out, take in. A self-contained source of fusion and fission. ONeness.

Last night

I was meditating and listening to some entrainment music, a Gamma frequency soundtrack by Dr. Jeffrey Thompson. I was having difficulty raising my energy past my anahata, so I stayed my focus there for the remainder. And soon into it I suddenly felt blissful ecstatic energy burst outward. It felt so good I couldn't help but tear up! By the end of the track I was feeling weightless. It was so short, too, the meditation. It's a 30 minute long track but it only felt like half that amount of time..

Become Music

Close your eyes. Make no effort to hear or think anything whatsoever. Relax every muscle in your body. You start to drowse heavily. Everything slowly dissolves. Wait, and let go. Nothing but the music, music and nothing but, absolute, imperious, and alone. You are dissolving into the rhythm. Words aren't made for this. You must wait for that wordless moment when you cannot even say you are floating in the ether because, for such an expression to have meaning, it would still imply a "you" separate from vibration itself. It is precisely that "you" that is canceled. Nothing remains but waves, that pure pulsation you have become.

I saw Katie's chakra energies for my first time. On her chest was green, sort of in the shape of a butterfly, with yellow on the bottom tips of the wings, and blue flowing up her throat, as if the butterfly were singing. And I observed her face for awhile as green energy flowed across her cheeks. I brought my hand up to her face and caressed the skin on her cheek and neck, and suddenly I saw a glowing green between my hand and her neck! And I looked at my hand, spotting green flowing across my own skin as well. :)

The Invincible Adam

Invincible Adam
and complicated me
met on a toadstool
during a Sunday's eve'.

As the magic of Gaia
shone forth through his fibers
there seemed an elegance that could
ferment even Lucifer's ire!

And like a sage out of a page
of the Tao Teh Ching
I watched him dance
between the lines
of the cosmic yang-yin
crying out,
"Row, row, row your boat..."

As my heart blissfully burst into
an ethereal nebulous state,
I thanked Oh captain, my captain
for the encounter of one
such as this effervescent shipmate.

Real Fucking Inner Turmoil - Turbulant, Tumultuous, Hazy Rage

Three nights ago I became overwhelmingly disconnected with myself. It happened suddenly, after Katie did some energy work on my throat. I became irrationally helpless to a rage, an anger, but one that felt foreign to me. Can negative energy invade and attack? I still don't know what to make of it. :/