The Invincible Adam

Invincible Adam
and complicated me
met on a toadstool
during a Sunday's eve'.

As the magic of Gaia
shone forth through his fibers
there seemed an elegance that could
ferment even Lucifer's ire!

And like a sage out of a page
of the Tao Teh Ching
I watched him dance
between the lines
of the cosmic yang-yin
crying out,
"Row, row, row your boat..."

As my heart blissfully burst into
an ethereal nebulous state,
I thanked Oh captain, my captain
for the encounter of one
such as this effervescent shipmate.

Real Fucking Inner Turmoil - Turbulant, Tumultuous, Hazy Rage

Three nights ago I became overwhelmingly disconnected with myself. It happened suddenly, after Katie did some energy work on my throat. I became irrationally helpless to a rage, an anger, but one that felt foreign to me. Can negative energy invade and attack? I still don't know what to make of it. :/

High voltage

Zack got me super baked with a blunt of weed. Soon after, my body started hardcore vibrating. My kundalini seems to be doing something..

I recently had a dream that entailed my death by poison, only to reawaken a few months later with my scalp peeled open and routine surgery experiments being performed. An Asian woman analyzed the space behind me using big neon-orange goggles. "Look, do you see the colour?" asked the surgeon. The woman nodded.

Yesterday Katie and I attended a Transmission of Light self-healing service. It felt comparatively similar to being on ecstasy. I noted waves of green and purple light behind my eyelids. Afterwards Beverly introduced Katie to a woman named Cecilia. While the two of them briefly talked I asked Bev if I could give her a hug. She told me I looked much clearer. She put her hand on my face and told me that I was just adorable. I wanted to cry! Cecilia, who looked oriental, said she could see my wings of light were beginning to unfold behind me. (Dream synchronicity!)

mckenna talks to me all the time

we all must try to understand what is happening. we need to try and understand what is happening. and in my humble opinion, ideology is only going to get in your way. nobody understands what is happening. not buddhists, not christians, not government scientists, not... you know, no one understands what is happening. so, forget ideology. they betray, they limit, they lead astray. just deal with the raw data and trust yourself. nobody is smarter than you are. and what if they are, what good is they're understanding doing you? the people who walk around saying, "well i don't understand quantum physics but somewhere somebody understands it," that's not a very helpful attitude for preserving the insights of quantum physics. inform yourself. what does inform yourself mean? it means: transcend and mistrust ideology; go for direct experience. what do you think when you face the waterfall? what do YOU think when you have sex? what do YOU think when YOU take psilocybin? everything else is unconfirmable rumor, useless, probably lies. so, liberate yourself from the illusion of culture. take responsibility for what you think and what you do.

Dream

I was in a house I didn't recognize. But it was Adam's house in this dream. I was in his room.
He stepped out for some number of minutes. I began to rummage through his stuff, looking for letters to/from his girlfriend and whatnot.
I happened to glance out the doorway and see that he was watching me from the other room outside.
I felt stupid. I bent my head down to cover my embarrassment.
"See?" He said. He came in and I sprawled on my belly on the floor, not wanting to look at his face in shame. He'd caught me at my worst. I felt like a worm.
He stood on my back. I felt energy travel through his feet and into my spine. He still loved me.

"You assist an evil system most effectively by obeying its orders and decrees. An evil system never deserves such allegiance. Allegiance to it means partaking of the evil. A good person will resist an evil system with his or her whole soul." - Mahatma Gandhi

Finally, my mind feels calm again.

The sun is in the house of Virgo, and the moon has moved into Pisces. The two polar energies are brilliantly at work. I feel awesome, like two September summers ago when I first tried psychedelics.

Timewave zero theory

the essence of the theory is that existence emerges from the clash of two forces, not good and evil but habit and novelty. habit is entropic, repetitious, conservative; novelty is creative, disjunctive, progressive. "in all processes in any scale, you can see these two forces grinding against each other. you can also see that novelty is winning." -TMK

as novelty increases, so does complexity. from the big bang on, "the universe has been complexifying, and each level of complexity achieved becomes the platform for a further ascent into complexity."

"you could say that the cosmos is a novelty-producing-and-conserving system of some sort. so, the evolution of higher animals and human culture and high technology is all in response to this universal form of complexification."

helping hands come in the situation you least expect

i went to the gas station on franklin street. after pre-paying and filling up i got in and turned the ignition. the car started momentarily then died. i tried again, but it wouldn't start back up. i kept turning, hoping it would work, to no avail. i looked around, still turning it over, hoping some passerby would be able to lend a hand or advice... nothing. i said, "shit, well, i can't even call anyone, i don't have anymore minutes" and put the car neutral, got out and started to push the car backwards towards the parking lot. the somali lady next to me at the pump came over and said something quietly, i couldn't really understand, and then started to help me push, so i smiled, saying, "thanks." once i had a good momentum going she said something else, again i couldn't understand over her accent and my heavy breathing. i looked behind me and saw she had stopped pushing so i smiled and waved. after having pushed the car into a spot, i got in and sat for a moment, thinking. i turned the ignition again just for the sake of it, and it started up! "hellll yeah!" i exclaimed. i drove the car back over to the pumps, got out and walked over to the woman. she said, "oh, it's working again, huh?" and i said, "yeah, i don't know what you did, but after you touched it it started right up! so i wanted to say thank you. i guess you have the magic touch." she smiled and chuckled in surprise at the remark. i happened to touch her elbow in appreciation. later out on the road i started feeling really high and happy, and my legs were all warm. it was like when the people would touch jesus' robes or something.

W.W. aka Kosmos

I dream'd in a dream, I saw a city invincible to the attacks of the whole of the rest of the earth;
I dream’d that was the new City of Friends;
Nothing was greater there than the quality of robust love—it led the rest;
It was seen every hour in the actions of the men of that city,
And in all their looks and words

the holographic mind

All the energy that ever was, is, or can be, is already here. Energy is all there is. Energy is neither created nor destroyed. Our thoughts are energy; nothing else is energy since everything occurs in our minds. So, the Big Bang was the manifestation of our thought - just one thought which occurred in an instant and with that thought, we created/ miscreated the entire known universe - all at once, the entire hologram - everything. Our consciousness can go anywhere it wants and focus on anything, any time, any space, any entity that it wants. Within a hologram there is no time and no space. Herein lies our consciousness. What we continue to do is just run around in this hologram just like a kid at the midway - trying different perspectives, lives, times, places, people, etc. Great fun! What an experiment!

Understanding the way the mind works is exigent. What happens is that we have a thought, rather, ‘thoughts have us’. 85% of them are negative because they arise from the ego mind which lives in fear. This is why what we experience in life seems to be somewhat negative. Thoughts are the energy which creates ... everything. Because we have senses we sense that things are not as we would like them and we strive to change the circumstances rather than change our thoughts. As Marianne Williamson said, “Changing our circumstances is like re-arranging the deck chairs on the Titanic.” What sometimes happens is that through increased information, unbeknownst to our conscious mind, we do change our thoughts, which fleetingly affords us to change our circumstances, which then change our perceptions, which then change our beliefs, which then begin to create more workable thoughts which create circumstances more to our liking. What works best is if we can release the old programming because then we are clear to create what we want. We need to stop the fear-based thinking which is so ingrained in us that we consider it natural. It is not.

Collectively we have ‘created’ our world. Truth is, if we want to know what is going on in our minds, we need only observe our circumstances. If we are happy with our circumstances, we can conclude that our minds are somewhat happy and vice versa. Our circumstances follow our thoughts. Nothing is created without thought, thought is the only source of energy, energy is what it takes to create, and energy is all there is. We have ‘cause and effect’ reversed. Our belief in time and space is what keeps us from knowing real cause and effect. Our circumstances are the result of our thinking, so our judging any situation is based upon our belief that circumstances came first and our response is the result.

You don’t get to vote on the way it is; you already did. - Werner Erhard

Since thoughts are creative energy, we must be vigilant about how we spend our energy. Praying for things that don’t exist, i.e.: things of this world, will gets us nothing. So we pray to change our perceptions or we pray in gratitude: “it is done” (wasa). Prayers are then ‘answered’ - and so it is (espavo).

I prayed for a bicycle until I realized God doesn’t work that way. So, I stole a bicycle and then prayed for forgiveness. - Emo Philips

The powers that be don’t want us, whom they consider the ‘enemy’, to know their secrets. They
promote each of us as the other’s competition, when in fact our opposition is way closer to home - our very own ego mind. If we continue to believe that ‘what is going on in the world’ is real and creates fear for us, we must consider that we are continuing to create it. If we want to change the world, which exists only in our own minds, we must first change our minds about the world. When we fear, we serve only the dark entities which David Icke claims thrive on our fear. When we rise above fear, they cease to exist, at least in our minds.... and seeing as everything exists only in our minds... they will cease to exist - except for those who choose to keep them alive by paying their attention to them. We will win. We are watching a horror movie which ends well. Keep up your spirits in anticipation for the famous final scene.

Copied from my message to Katie :P

after leaving the library i drove towards work early, but ended up driving along some of the backroads near the farm. i parked in this field and pulled out The Bhagavad Gita. i started feeling really strange and slightly light-headed soon into reading, so i closed the book and turned off the music. i became aware of the loud ringing in my ears then, so i tried to focus on it and just became more aware of my surroundings. i was starting to have similar thoughts to when i've tripped on acid, it was quite surreal. there was a light rain falling. i wasn't getting anything out of the ringing however, so i decided to do some meditating...with the heart chakra! when i visualized my temple, it was pretty closed off, not open like yours. so i changed its looks, forcing the doorways on its sides to become more open. i went barefoot into my temple this time, and the wet stone felt awesome. i noticed some of the pictures framed on the walls were of other similar temples, maybe they were previous temple formations from my younger years, idk. and when the flames started growing from the energy i was giving, i envisioned green light being slightly emitted at the edges of the flames. you should try that! and after exiting, i did a couple twirls and then took off into the air. :) when i opened my eyes i noticed the rain was letting up. i got out of the car and saw loads of clovers all over the ground, so i searched for a 4-leafer, no luck though, lol. and the sun started peeking through the clouds, too. i couldn't help but let out a laugh! i felt great.

later at work there was a goat lying in the barn amongst the others. i could tell she was in pain. so i sat down next to her and slowly petted her, trying to keep her calm. she couldn't really move, so i got her some water and lifted her head into the pan. she took a few struggled gulps. i tried doing some energy transferal to see if i could tell what her problem was, but it didn't really work out. so i just sent love and healing energy into her. i don't know how well it worked (goats don't really give feedback). but as i was doing it, a Nubian came up behind me and started rubbing her head on my back and neck, and it sent waves of energy throughout my body, and i used those waves to strengthen the love and healing i was sending out. it was fucking cool. :D

magickal sheep encounter

I was at the zoo with my twin serpent. We came to the pen holding a Dall Sheep. He was about 30 feet away, lying down next to some rocks.
Katie said, "Try calling out to him."
So I directed my energy towards the animal and said (psychically), "Heyyyy, Dall Sheep. Heeyyyy Dall Sheep. Come here, Dall Sheep." After some moments he started to arch his neck and did this rolling of his head to the sky. I continued calling to him. He got up off the ground and just stood there for a minute. Katie looked over at me with an anticipating smile. He walked to the right side fence and did the head roll thing two more times. I still called after him in the same fashion. He took a few steps in our direction. Katie's smile turned into surprised excitement. The sheep moved towards us again, coming all the way to the fence between us. I turned to Katie, shrugged and smiled sheepishly (lulz).
Then the Dall Sheep took a piss, and walked off.

Dear One

As my soul has been traveling along its path of this life,
I wonder if it started to feel the energy of Katie.
It knew that it was coming to the moment where
our love would collide and explode.

But early on, I didn't specifically know
that my twin was Katie.
And that seems to explain why I latched onto
Sommer and then Heather the way I did.

I was just confused as to where this source of a
LOVENERGY CONNECTION
was going to reveal itself in its original form.

It tasted like shite, but it opened my tastes for new love.

Katie showed me the power of love energy.
Zack showed me the power of a smile.
Aaron showed me the power of closed doors.
I showed myself the power of uninhibited expression.

Now I know it's not just because of the common connection that Katie and I have...

Oddly enough, my mom was able to channel energy to me!
(At first I tried to give to her, but nothing much was felt on her end.)
She seems to be blocked up around the solar plexus area on the spine, from what I could feel.
(Katie and I have been discovering the ability to feel another's energy by way of transfer. It works best when our third/fifth eyes make out.)

Kurt Vonnegut - Bokononism

If you wish to study a granfalloon,
just remove the skin of a toy balloon.

T'ung Jen Companions

Katie consulted the I Ching in regards to her and I, or our generalized relationship. It provided her with Hexagram 13, which reads, "Lovers (friends) in the open - success! It is advantageous to cross the great river (or sea)*. The Superior Man will benefit if he does not slacken in his righteous persistence."
[*To make any kind of journey.]

We performed some more scrying last night. I saw her wounded inner child. I also saw her Warrior self. There was a painted, white, elongated zag going from under her right eye, diagonally up across the bridge of her nose, and straight again over her left eye. The right eye had a fierce bird-look to it. The rest of her face was of an older woman, confident, and leathery but tight-skinned. Katie saw one of my demons. His eyes went dark and started to boil, and he gave her a cocky grin, as if to say, 'you see me but you can't do anything about it, ha ha.' Later we switched. She saw part of the Warrior me and I saw a demon of hers, although it didn't fully come out. It was mottled and boiled and very loathsome.

12:45 AM Sighting

Last night I sighted my first UFO!
Was chillin' under the cloudy, starry atmosphere at Ki-Chi-Saga park with Heather Lou, when I spotted a stationary light start to move, at a similar speed as satellites do in the night sky. I thought mine eyes were playing tricks, but the speed seemed to be varying. I remember thinking, "no way, if that's a UFO I am going to flip." The light then completely turned and started moving 90 degrees in a different direction. That's when I got giddy! And it continued its eratic flight for a good four or five minutes, increasing and decreasing in speed, even stopping every so often for a couple seconds, zig-zagging around the same area in the sky, and changing directions quickly, too fast for a plane to be capable of doing. But eventually I lost sight of it in the clouds.

∞

A simple plan for life is change, find yourself the nicest range, strange
Then you see the light, Then you find the right, On a bright day
There’s a population boom going on, There’s a planetary shift you can hear it in this song ,
They try to heal it then cut it, heal it then cut it, heal it then cut it don’t cut it again
If you feel it then love it, if you feel it then love it, if you feel it love it my friend
Its right in front of us each and every one of us Freedom or death yes the two are antonymous
Symphonic, jus hearin good news I keep my ears open and stare to the moon
I know theres more than hope when I put out the feelers, We all want the same thing when we’re bein all realist
Collective consciousness lets form a village, Then spread good feelings till there aint no more killers
And I apologize if I didn’t always rise to occasion, Had to come of age and apply my knowledge to my personal experiences
If I didn’t I could’ve died in all seriousness, We’ve come far y’all
As a person, as a people, as a world Its time to raise the bar
Its not hard just remember who you are, Its not hard just remember
all matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration,
we are all one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively,
there is no such thing as death,
life is only a dream,
and we are the imagination of ourselves.
∞

4/10 - Ouija Board and Channeling at Katie's Place

We lit a few candles, turned off the lights, sat on her bed with the board, and began the session.

Katie: Is there anybody there?
YES.
K: Would you like to talk with us?
YES.
K: What is your name?
L-E-M.
(We assumed these were initials.)
Alex: What does the L stand for?
L-A-R-R-Y.
A: Are you male?
YES.
A: How old are you, Larry?
2-3.
K: Larry, how did you die?
E-X-T-A-S-Y.
(We had been discussing ecstasy not too long before the session.)
K: Is that really how you died, Larry?
(Indecisive movement.) NO.
K: Where are you?
(Katie knew the answer right after she asked.)
H-E-R-E.
K: How long have you been here?
(Moved off the board.)
A: Have you been here less than a year?
YES.
A: Have you been here less than a month?
YES.
A: Have you been here less than a week?
YES.
A: Where are you from?
V.
K: Are you from Virginia?
YES.
A: Did you know people from Minnesota?
YES.
A: Did you have a girlfriend, Larry?
YES.
K: Did you and your girlfriend have tons of raunchy sex?
NO.
K: Do you wish you had?
YES.
K: Why are you here, Larry?
K-A.
(We assumed this meant Katie.)
A: Do you like Katie?
YES.
K: Were you here earlier when I was changing?
YES.
A: So why are you here?
(Moved off the board.)
(We assumed this meant he didn't want to say.)
A: What's your favourite colour?
(I knew the answer before he started spelling.)
Y-E-L-
A: Yellow.
(Stopped spelling.)
K: Was your girlfriend attractive?
NO.
K: Do you think I'm attractive?
YES.
A: Are you bisexual?
NO.
A: When's your birthday?
8-2.
(Katie's birthday is also August 2nd!)
K: When did you die, Larry?
(Moved off the board.)
(We started to assume that he didn't like serious questions.)
A: Are you a day person or a night person?
D.
A: Do you like cats?
NO.
(We couldn't think of anymore questions for awhile. We also were doubting whether or not this was just our own psyche's fucking with us. So we decided to head in a different direction.)
A: If you can, make your presence known by blowing out a candle.
(We waited. Nothing. We assumed it was possibly too hard for him.)
K: If you can, make your presence known by making a sound.
(We waited. Again, nothing.)
A: Are you trying?
YES.
K: Is there some method that would be easier?
YES.
K: What is that method?
M-I-R-R-O-R-S.
(At this point we both got too scared of that idea.)
A: Can it be either one of us?
YES.
(Neither one of us wanted to do this. I grabbed Katie's mirror off of her dresser and set it leaning on a pillow, face down.)
K: How does this method work?
L-O-O-K.
(Again, we both were too nervous.)
A: Would one of us be easier than the other?
A.
(We assumed this meant Alex. I took a deep breath, turned the mirror around, and stared. Nothing happened.)
(An idea then popped into Katie's head, and she explained to me about the divination technique called scrying. So I held the mirror in front of me and stared. But the lighting seemed too dim.)
(Katie tested the method closer to the candles. She said her face became whiter, and she got scared and stopped.)
(I sat down by the candles and held the mirror close to my face. There was lots of dissolving of my features. I kept my concentration on not trying to focus on anything specific. There was more dissolving and slight changes. I caught glimpses of darker eyes, and rounder face, and more stretched-out lips. It was a bit unnerving. Afterwards, I felt drained for awhile.)
(Katie wanted to try again, so we switched spots. She also began seeing dark eyes [we didn't discuss what we saw until we both had done this] but nothing else was really clear.)
(I used the board while Katie was still looking.)
A: Would you show yourself to Katie?
(Indecisive movement.) C.
(I assumed this meant the cat, and that it was bothering him. She had jumped onto the bed a few minutes before and was being nosy. Katie brought her out of the room.)
A: How can Katie see you?
A.
(We assumed this again meant Alex. Katie joined me on the bed.)
K: Why Alex?
B-O-Y.
K: Are you more comfortable with him because he's a boy?
YES.
(We then discussed the possibility of Larry coming inside of me, and that's why I had felt so drained before.)
A: Larry, when you showed yourself to me, were you inside of me?
YES.
A: Could you do it again?
YES.
A: So if I let you inside me, would you be able to show yourself to Katie?
YES.
A: Would you be able to show yourself if she looked at my face?
YES.
A: What would she have to focus on?
(Indecisive movement.)
A: Does she already know?
YES.
A: What would I have to focus on?
(Indecisive movement.)
K: Should he focus on an object or event or something?
YES.
(We digress with random questions about sports for a while.)
A: What should I focus on?
K-A-I-T-E.
A: What about her? Focus on who she is as a person?
YES.
(We discussed what each of us were going to focus on, then told Larry we were ready.)
(We got comfortable, and Katie began to scry using my face. I repeated Katie's name in my head and thought about what I liked about her, what were her positive traits/qualities, et cetera. After only a minute or two of scrying, a face that was entirely different from mine appeared. Katie later said he looked younger than 23, had wavy brown hair, brown eyes, delicate features, and wide smiling lips. He had looked at her contentedly and non-threateningly. Katie: "I couldn't look away for a second, but then realized I was freaked out and looked away. I didn't tell Alex I saw anything yet. I kept scrying and kept seeing partial features, especially smiles. I asked Alex if he smiled and he said no. He then had to take his contacts out [eyes were getting too dry]. When he came back we continued but I was still seeing a smile and just pieces of his face at a time. It was at a particular time when he smiled at me that I realized his name wasn't Larry.")
K: Is your name really Larry?
NO.
A: What is it?
Z-H-T.
A: Could you spell your first name?
Z-E-K-E.
(Right after the Z was centered, Katie knew it was Zeke.)
A: Is your name really Zeke?
YES.
A: Is Larry your father?
YES.
(We had conversation about the whole previous experience for awhile.)
A: Are you still inside me?
YES.
A: How long are you going to be there?
(Indecisive movement.)
A: How many minutes?
2-0.
(With a few more questions, I realized I was able to answer them without the board. At this realization, I also felt the urge to talk to Katie, kind of like as an ambassador for Zeke. AKA a channel, or vessel.)
Hi.
K: Hi.
I like you.
K: Thanks, I like you too.
Want to go out?
K: Where would you take me?
-Smiles- Heaven.
K: -Giggle-
(Katie didn't know what else to say, and I could tell Zeke became shy.)
A: There's something he wants.
K: What?
A: He doesn't want to tell, he doesn't think you'll do it.
K: What is it?
A: He wants a kiss.
K: -Giggles- Well, tell Zeke I'll kiss him if he tells me how he died.
A: I can't read an answer.
(We went to the board.)
K: If I agree to kiss you will you tell us how you died?
YES.
K: So how did you die?
E-X.
A: Were you killed accidentally?
YES.
A: Did you kill yourself?
(Moved off the board.)
K: Did you kill yourself because of an ex?
YES.
K: Did she break your heart?
YES.
(Then Katie had no idea what to say, and I could tell Zeke had started to sulk.)
A: He's frustrated.
K: Why?
A: You aren't really making him feel better.
(Katie went silent for awhile, then started talking to Zeke.)
K: So are you more of a dog person?
Yes.
K: What kind of dogs?
Beagles. And basset hounds.
K: Did you have one?
No.
K: My brother has a basset hound. He's cute.
-Smiles and chuckles-
Okay, I'm ready for that kiss now.
K: Okay.
Lie on your back.
K: -Giggles-
What, haven't you been kissed on your back before?
K: Well, yeah...
Alex is more nervous than I am.
K: Why?
He doesn't want to tell you.
K: Why not?
-Giggles and shakes head-
K: Why not?
-Silence-
K: He knows he can tell me anything.
A: He wants to switch positions.
(We moved.)
A: He doesn't want to do anything till you can see him.
K: -Nods-
Let's play pretend.
K: Okay.
Because I want you to pretend that you've wanted this for a very long time.
K: I have.
(I [Zeke] move up close to Katie. She stares and looks for his face. He puts his hand on her cheek. She sees his face and smiles.)
Hi.
K: -Smiles again- Hi.
Close your eyes.
(Katie does. He kisses her, slowly, twice. Then rolls onto his back, beaming.)
(My heart felt like bursting forth through my chest.)
(Katie said she was feeling really shaky and energized, very excited.)
A: He says, 'Thank you.'
K: He was probably talking to you.
A: Yeah.

A HOLE IN HISTORY

Magic is an aspect of the human experience that has always been with us. It is a way of living that involves interacting with the universe as if it were alive and intelligent, a fact that many current scientific movements are desperately trying to alert us to. As experience has shown, if you speak to the universe in the proper manner, THE UNIVERSE WILL SPEAK BACK. Shamanism, one of the most profound forms of magic, shows that what is visible is the manifestation of the invisible; it is the use of one's understanding of the invisible to affect change in the visible. How to negotiate unmanifest realms, while keeping oneself grounded in the manifest, is the Work (and Play) of a lifetime.

Magic is neither religion nor science. It is simply a technique for helping the universe grow. The exaltation of the creative impulse (magic) is an excellent framework for reorienting people towards creating solutions, as opposed to fetishizing about already known problems. As with magic itself, one is recommended not to take any of it too seriously, although one is also recommended not to back off into ironic distance. It can be easy to go too far in, but it is far, far easier to miss the bus completely.

It was those infinite abysses of human potential I was noticing people successfully expanding themselves into, without losing their balance, and it was quickly becoming clear to me that I was seeing evolution, in leaps and bounds- not only of the body, but of culture, of mind and of the human "spirit." In our present moment we are not seeing the apocolypse as in the destruction of the world, but the apocolypse as in the destruction of our (solely) rational worldview. We are seeing how shamefully limited our perspective has been, and we are seeing, quite clearly, our own evolution. (1987-2012) The Apocolypse...The Unveiling of Truths.

While magic has never totally gone away, in the preceding century shamanism, magic, and hightened consiousness have slowly returned to high visibility within culture, in a wholly new form all gussied up for the Third Millenium---the revelation of the living universe and the divinity of ALL.

thank the psylocibin psychedelic mushroom for language. thank a 'drug' for our current form of life.


This Earth will soon be our perfect world. I imagine art, love, joy, music, exploration, adventure. We all can imagine it. We call it "Eadin." Our breath creates it, and it will be the place where we all live. I imagine green pastures instead of concrete buildings, where everybody is free to explore themselves, their world, and their universe. No fear. No shame. No guilt. No shyness. No repression. We want Utopia. The buildings will be made of trees. Magical women will live in the foggy marshes, charting the data of the stars. The more we pour into this goal, the more real it becomes. Humans will be free, not slaved, not brutalized and hypnotized by the rich owners of the Earth who create everthing with their media hallucination. The trees will expell a rainbow language to the children as they sleep. The animals free. The dead spirits and the dead cultures with us once again. A world where everybody mattered. NO MORE RELIGION. NO MORE WARS. NO MORE POVERTY. NO MORE HYPNOSIS. NO MORE LIES. Where the world was no longer crowded. People gathering in the fields at dusk to know the presence of the divinity of the natural world. Thoughts shared. It is idealistic and silly as hell, but then you have to aim higher than your mark, in order to ensure you hit your mark. We Want Utopia.

Once you've engaged with any kind of magical practice, it's about as easy to ignore as a hungry cat; you can't walk a foot without tripping over it. This is the universe saying its ready to play.

"I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven." Matthew 18:3

It is our birthright to swallow the stars, to burn an eternal flame, to soar across the heavens...


A very large part of the population of the population has at least some experience with consiousness-expanding drugs. Those who use them intelligently, or even who use them for magic, are exceedingly rare. While drugs can be an important catalyst in magic, should be added, they are certainly not the point or the end state, or even essential in its workings.

Altered states, however, ARE essential, and though drugs may be the easiest way there, they are also the hardest to direct towards productive ends. Peter J. Carrol, one of the originators of chaos magic, made the foundation stone of his approach that "altered states of consciousness are the key to magical power," and it is indeed altered states of all forms that we seek to cultivate. The human nervous system is the best toy in the world, and we are here to explore and innovate with it. This is true on more than just the individual level.

People were taught God's up there, and he left a long time ago.
What we are now emphasizing is that WE ARE GOD TOO. People are going to love to learn it.

Base your beliefs in the ultimate symbol: infinity. That is what the young child perceives clearer than the "normal" adult. That is what we seek... pure innocence.

''There is nothing either good or bad,

but thinking makes it so."
-William Shakespeare

Don Quixote de la Mancha

"I will act as if the world were what I would have it to be, as if the ideal were real"

he's beginning to believe

"Who is the happier man, he who has braved the storm of life and lived or he who has stayed securely on shore and merely existed?" -Hunter S. Thompson

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” Nelson Mandela.